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Ancient Fleeting

There’s a hole in my soul
It bleeds out all I know
Nothing fills it
Nothing heals it
Wanting everything
And desiring nothing
A loop of frustration
Creating my own damnation to be my salvation

Feeling ancient
Body breaking to match my soul
Life taking its toll
Birth an accident
Existence an underachievement
Of wasted time, energy and moments

Going nowhere fast
While moving forward
In a loop de loop of a corkscrew helix
Only to find myself back
My soul will not last
As I ghost backward
In a life of pyrrhic
Whose purpose I lack

World Apart

I live in the world yet exist apart

I live in the reality of the fake

I see the truth of its horror

I see behind the fairy tales of what it wants to be

I see it as it is and was


If I had still had a heart

It would not break

For I am no mourner

And in this world nothing is free

Not the love, not the hate nor sound of the applause


Everything at a price

The price is cheap

Only your soul

Your dreams

And all you consider yourself


Here your damned thrice

And no one will weep

As time takes its toll

As others hear the screams

And worry not for you health


Here in the really real world

The monsters don’t hide

They roam everywhere

Not under your bed

Nor in your closet

They stand to your left and right

Behind and in front


Your terror will go unheard

No place will be safe no inside

Or out there

The ghosts and demons aren’t in your head

And your misery will be their profit

As they hold you tight

Until the daily hunt


When you run and run

Till the setting of the sun

To getaway from the reality

And know its only futility

As they never left you alone

As the truth is shown

Sell Soul

I find myself at a loss
The words come yet the feeling is not there
They echo in the hollow ring
Of meaningless
They drown in the noise of my world
Without ever being heard

In the jungle of my confusion
I feel nothing
No faith in anything or anyone
There is no God or Devil here
Only me
That’s all there ever be
No loves, no fear

I have felt the dream die
I have seen the innocent cry
And the guilty smile
And truth be told after awhile

I forget which is which
And no only the bitch
That exists within and without
And no scream or shout
Is audible nor possible
To save the soul
That was sold

Letting go

Cease to resist

I feel the pull of the abyss

And give the goodbye kiss

Knowing I won’t be missed


I have given up the hope

And know only the ghosts

Of all I loved and lost

Of the future that never will be

And the past that never was

A present that can’t go on


The will to survive gone with the dying of the light

And in the darkness I thrive

The darkness I consumed

To feed my soul

To feed my need

And now here I bleed


Bleeding out into the world

Unknown and unsung in the hollow shallow shell

Of humanity forgotten to the core

I seek no comfort from the storm